James at Home

  On my right is despair  On my left is anguish Yet I face you off Infront of me is failure to hear you So, I listen and wait So, I carry you in me And as I come to wait You meet me in the middle And I hear your calling out to me Cos waiting for noon to meet And can’t see you here Yet I wait in anxiety Feasting on fresh bread Roasted chicken awaits me Yet I can’t see my own face again Yet all I long for I see despair  So, I carry my love for you lightly I carry you with joy  Cos in the waiting I am known Cos in the song I sing is joy In the song of despair gone I lift my head to see you here

Heaven opens to meet me this morning When I saw him standing before me, I chose life Even while there be freedom, I still choose you Even in the middle of confusion, I long for you When all is hope and promise, you provide the way When I look unto the mountains, there is rest in me Cos as I look to you in the middle of turmoil, you find a way

In the East the sun will rise, it will make me look and see its beauty Though as the day continues my eyes will adjust to sun and moon will fade Yet eyes cannot see what the Lord has in store for the wicked and righteous  He casts upon them a task not heard of before He causes them to stumble and there is no release of pressure for the wicked The wicked will fall, and the pressure will exceed their tolerance levels Yet I call on those who seek the Lord to rise above the wave of depression and call on him I call on God’s people to stay secure in him and fulfil their testimony that grace is sufficient for them That even as they walk their legs will not grow wary and as they run, they will not grow tired Cos in the day coming, says the Lord, there will be first, a second coming and second, a place of residing in him Because there is not even one last person here in the end, there will be freedom and joy in his presence as children of Heaven Because of his Spirit alerting us, there nee...

  I was away with the fairies Thinking of many things Yet you call me deep Into the heart of forgiveness and great love I made a promise I made a song There in the midst of it I came a long I came to a place Where the water was dry And while I waited here for sun to shine today My mind searched for yesterday’s bank account Yet my heart failed to understand today’s all I have So I carry my cross to the foot of the grave And realise I am falling in love with you I come in and rest again at your feet Cos I know your heart is sweet Photo by  Dmitriy Frantsev  on  Unsplash

I am lost in the abyss of disappointment and shame And yet you came to me with joy, I am surprised Cos I never see me fully You do and am pleased to be with me So I lay it all at your feet in awe Cos while I wait, I see you here with me Cos it’s pricy to wait, I do so with love Cos it all I can hold, I give you my hand in yours So my faithful love is all you want And even as I look at the way you come to me Slow and steady Ready to be my all and all I come away ready to serve as a son in the house

Praise God for his glory manifest here Praise God for his spirit made me pure While I wait, he hold me secure in his love I wrestle with angst Yet he’s not afraid So, I hear him speak softly to me “Wait I’ll show you me I’ll show you able to sing I’ll show you my heart is pure I’ll gift you my hand in your hand I’ll go with you to work today I’ll make a piece of silver seam worthless to me Cos I stay centre of everything I stay centre of my hope that you will see me come again While I wait, while I come to you There is freedom, there is joy There I am, he in the midst of trial There I come to you And I come for you”

Every day I wake early to seek you Lord Every moment my hope is found in love Yet I fall to my face in awe of your glory So coming along the road I spy you I see you walking towards me There is freedom and there is great trial ahead Yet my heart is confident in you being my reason to live Yet I fall in awe at your love That I would find myself here with you again So I stay found in your presence Ready to fall again in love with you

So, in this place where freedom comes to me I wait on a man in the midst of a battle And as I stay here I see my enemy fade away The very song I sang cause my victory That as I wait, I call and he answer me I am free and yet I walk alone Yet even in this place I call home I find I cannot lay my head down and rest Cos as I do my hope finds It’s rest in him And I am found at the centre of a myth that leaves me reeling Cos as I lay it at the cross  My life is at a turning point One where I call on him to answer me I call out to my King, save me from this tyranny I find myself in        

So, in my midst there is a King His robes hang to the ground, and I see him bright and shining On His left is a song filled birds singing a song of joy On His right sheep are neighing and his word to them is this Don’t be afraid, rather fear the Lord’s hand upon you So, I carry this word to you with joy in my heart Cos as I wait there would be joy to hold this word for your salvation come So let us wait with anticipation, let us dance with joy in our heart So, I come awaiting my King I come open to hear from Him I hear him speak Lowly and steady I hear Him speak That I come and eat on the Lord’s day That he, God almighty, would reign over us in love and care for his people So, I wait in love for he cares for me.   Photo by   Bill Fairs   on   Unsplash

For I am wary and tired I am free to sing of you Lord You come and stay close to me In every circumstance I leave my inconspicuous way To hear you say I love you Cos in this place of Hell I hear you say I am here And as I wait on you You come and meet me here  

I will announce my Lord free to sing He will come in and set my tired legs steady I will continue this prison no more He made me free to sing Again, I say no more chains, no more shackles I have gone in unawares yet now I see him fall Satan has deceived us into holding his heart high Yet has fallen at the trap of sin So I carry this grace filled pass to Him who stays faithful to me So I carry this cross at a place called death that I might have him in me. Photo by  James Day  on  Unsplash

  I waited for the night to change to day There, there was a change in my soon to stay And while I waited and saw the light dawning afar There my heart grew dim to your love near my heart Cos in the middle of the song I gave you my heart and you mine Song and melody ring through my head Of the peace we have before the story ends Cos in the place I see you come I rest in the melody a from  And in the peace my word matter to you I wait in the story as it grows Into a place of solitude  Cos in this people you have set your tune It rides the wave of distrust And sores above the singing of distrust I leave it all at the foot of the cross Cos as I wait there be a song That I sing and play along That even while I wait you sing with me. Photo by  Matt Paul Catalano  on  Unsplash

I will walk around this mountain one more time and see no more shame in it, not due to running from it rather my King is alive in my bones, bring life to me. So, I come and eat off the bread of his word and wait on his promise to me. Some people us word to wage war with while each man has jurisdiction for not weapon wielding, yet only faith filled promise keeping. Some people wait on the Lord in vain not waiting hope filled and courageous prayers. Rather hearing the Lord is feast seat before a King. So, I son of God will wait to hear him speak. Photo by  Todd Trapani  on  Unsplash